I Tend To Get Lost In Myself

I tend to get lost in myself

Forgetting my ambitions

My goals and dreams

I tend to get lost in myself

Living to cushion others in their lives

Mesmerized by everybody smiling - but me

I tend to get lost in myself

Never hearing the inner laugh

Dazed from the inside out

I need to find myself again

Stop being ungrateful for the simple things in my life!

Move in my time, smile for more than a while

I need to stop missing in action!

And live my life the way I want to live it

With a smile, laughter and joy from within

With so much of the physical happening

We sometimes leave the inner to gather dust

I want the dust off, and let in shine

My inner that is left alone

I tend to get lost in myself sometimes.

(19 September 2006)

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